The Hardest Part of Choosing

There is a point in your life when you realize there are two contrary heart’s desires in yourself. One comes from your intention to obey His will and another comes from your own wish. It’s easier to choose if you know which one is good (or true) and which one is bad (or sinful). But it becomes much harder when you know that your own wish seems a good one too, it totally doesn’t appear as sin. As a matter of fact, most people called it a good character and intention. But deep in your heart, you know that it isn’t God’s will for you, at least for right now.

Well… you can choose to keep moving on through His path, like you have been doing all these times. But somehow you know that you didn’t do it with your whole heart anymore. You used to think that this journey might be temporary… but when all you can “see” is an endless road ahead, you tend to feel like you want to give up… but you know you can’t. So you just keep running on with half battery power while you’re waiting for the time when you (finally) will be able to really breath in and live the way you’ve always wished for. But with that attitude, you know for sure that actually you have not made your decission yet. Because if you have chosen one, you should have lived it in your daily life with your whole heart.

You know this is hard. Even there were times when you asked God, “Are You really on my side?”
“Where will You bring me to?”
“What is exactly Your particular plan for me?”
Sometimes it’s hard to move forward when you can’t see anything clearly…

Remember this… the truth is… God is the Only Ultimate Story-maker.

We may have known Him as our Best Friend, our Protector, and our good Heavenly Father. Don’t you think that maybe this is the season when He wants you to know Him deeper, as your Almighty God? God who has unlimited power… God who has created you with His magnificent plans upon your existence here on earth… God who has power upon all His creations and everything… God who is an Ultimate Author of your life.

You may not know everything. You may have so many unanswered questions. But in fact, that’s the best place for faith and trust to grow.

…So, which one will you choose?