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Memories

I thought I've had enough of you
Thought I wouldn't be missing you this much
Yes... you...
The ones dancing around in my mind

Time had taken me away from you
And everytime I remember you
The warmth of love and the little things that had happened
Make me want to re-write the past once again

I thought I've forgotten about you
Thought you had dumped in the garbage
Yes... you...
The ones leaving scar in my heart

Time had taken me away from you
And how I want to leave you right there
But you just can't...
Because you're also part of my journey

All of you...
You made me learn about love
You made me learn about forgiving
You made me see my God within my previous foot prints

Sweet...
Bitter...
It doesn't really matter anyway...

N-O R-E-G-R-E-T
'cause I know that He was with me along the way

It's the one that truly matters...

(by Fay)

Nothing Else Really Matters

When you realized that time has no brake
He will keep moving on without a care of what you want
When you count the running seconds
They have their own race without your compromise

You know you can't deny it
and you can't do anything to stop it

The only thing you can do is to find
What is the most precious thing in your life
So you won't miss it
...won't let it slips away

It's your family...
Your dad who leads you, teaches you, and gives you courage to live boldly
Your mom who gave birth to you, takes care of you, and always support you
Your siblings who share early life under the same roof...

When you know that you don't have much time left
You will know instantly....
That nothing else really matters to you
Not the things, but the beloved people matters most

...So use your time wisely...
'coz there's no turning back


* by Fay
(inspired from what happened yesterday - my friend's mom was RIP... and from "Click" movie)

Fatamorgana

Lelah...
Tak kudapati tempat berteduh
Hampa...
Di sekelilingku hanya ada hamparan pasir yang kering

Terjebak tanpa sadar
Di padang gurun yang seolah tak berujung
...mungkin sedikit lagi...
Bisikku pada diri sendiri

Langkah-langkahku berkejaran
Menepis semua skeptisme yang menghadang di sudut benakku
Lebih dekat lagi...
Berharap setelah ini kutemukan pelepas dahaga

Satu persatu bayangan itu muncul
Dari kekosongan menjadi raga yang bernyawa
Seperti layar bioskop yang menyatu dengan realita
...sebuah jalan keluar telah terbentang!

Kudekap erat... dan biarkan diri melebur
Ini keinginan otakku... ini keinginan mataku...
Biarkan aku menikmati semua cinta dan tawa
Sampai batas khayalan dan kenyataan terhapus...

...dalam fatamorgana

Setitik debu menjadikan semuanya hancur dalam lautan pasir
Terdiam saat segalanya menghilang...
Waktu membawanya terbangun dari alam mimpi
Keindahan sesaat itu hanya sebuah tipuan pikiran...

--------

Langkahkan kaki kembali maju
Menggenggam harapan yang masih bernyawa
...untuk sebuah keindahan yang nyata...
Jangan menyerah pada fatamorgana...

Ultimate Love Will Set You Free

I don't feel a thing
No 'cause I don't need to
I'm just okay
If numb is a normal thing to live

Few things had happened in the past
Got the hurt, the anger and disappointment
...and I just couldn't bear another one
I made a promise not to let my heart be broken again

So I let others know that I was tough
...that I was strong and happy
and my life was just good enough
...for myself

Leaving the dreams and bitterness
I was building the defense system
Hoping that it would be enough to keep away others from hurting me
...enough to make them know that they can't take advantages of me

I was right...
No strangers dare enough to interfere
It seems what I've been set up has made me safe
...but slowly my heart is turning to numb...

I can't laugh
I can't cry
My defenses have frozen my heart
It's not only closed the gate from tears, but also from love

Father help me...
I've made a mistake...
What I meant to protect myself has crushed my own ability to feel
Heal me 'cause You're the only One who can...

Nothing can erase the previous journey...
...nor the memories...
But heart can be restored and renewed
When the ultimate Love comes and washes the pain away

Apart from You I stood alone
Apart from You I gave my best efforts
Apart from You... they meant nothing
Now I know... Apart from You... I can't do a thing...

False love can make you cry
False love can make you laugh
But only true Love can set you free
True love can make you able to discern the right from wrongs

Father I open my heart gate
Fill me with Your True Love...

Sun Please Stay

I am drowned in the middle of the day
There is a lot to do
My passion is burning my hands
I don't realize time is running by

I see the sun is going to go down
She is waiting for her partner to take the night shift
...and I am so beyond lost
What have I done today?

Sun please stay
Don't go away yet
I still have many things to accomplish
Don't leave me now...

I guess the moon wouldn't mind
To wait just for a few hours
I need more time...
...yes... just a little bit more...

Don't let me wondering about things I haven't done today
If so I would have a bad dream in my sleep
The day is not meant to be over yet
Sun please stay...

...just a little bit more...

(by Fay)

In a Blink of an Eye

Am I doing enough?
Because I feel all I’m doing is meaningless
Am I being enough?
Because I feel that everyone else is better than me

I’ve been hurt
I’ve been unconcious
I’ve done foolish things
I’ve made many disappointments

Few times I fell
Few times it seems like I’m going to be drowned
How can I runaway from this bad dream that has been haunting me?
How can I breath and be free?

In a blink of an eye
I see You…
My fears can’t hold me from reaching out to You
Cause I’m so hopeless…

In a blink of an eye
I see myself walking on Emmaus road
I didn’t see that You’re with me all along
and now I know…

In a blink of an eye
Everything comes on my sight
You are near… and Your love is real
Asking my faith to be set into You alone

Sometimes journeys reveal themselves
…just in a blink of an eye

I'm Yours

Before I am awake...
I was just a body made of dust
Lying on the ground
Frozen and pale...

Then Your breath blew life into me
...in a blink of an eye...
I'm alive...

Your faithfullnes has been giving me
everything I need to grow...
and Your unfailing love
...is like an eternal flame
shining throughout my life

You've been so patient...
and Your forgiveness is uncountable

...there's nothing else I can say...
I am truly Yours...

Who is Holding You Right Now?

Is it Mr. Fear?
...or is it Mr. Worry?
...or maybe Mr. Sorrow?

Don't let your mind focused on things you can't bear
...nor on troubles that make you weary
If you're asking yourself about tomorrow...

Remember this...

The One who holds tomorrow is holding your hand


PS: Thank You for reminding me God... ^o^

It's Your Love

Your love 
...was within me when I was still a baby in my mother's womb
Your love
...was poured upon me when I was still a child

What kind of thing that is so comforting?
When I felt alone and there was no one around
What kind of thing that soothe me in times of heartache?
It's Your love...

So gentle...
So generous...
It's flowing from Your heart for me
Full of grace...
Full of mercy...

Only one can make me still breathing until now
It's Your love...
Only one can keep me standing in awe of You...
It's Your amazing love... 

New Season Has Come

It's time to let go
When all you see is changes
It's time to turn your eyes from past
When things moving away without your ability to hold them

It's time to let go
When your friends have changed their priority
It's time to bless them and move forward
When a new season come at your sight

It's time to let go
When each of us walking toward different paths
It's time to embrace the future
When God leads your step into a new door

It's time to let go
...and to let loose
For everything is His possession
It's time to look ahead and prepare

For a new season has come...

Jeda Dalam Hening

Hening datang mendahului pagi
Kadang dia menyapa dan menitipkan temaram di hati
Kadang dia tinggal sejenak dan sodorkan tanya
... tentang dunia di balik kata “setelah itu”

Hening datang tanpa diduga
Serupa dengan wajah sunyi yang menggantung
Dia hanya duduk di sana...
Membiarkan nyanyiannya mengalun sepanjang malam

Hening datang membawa jeda
Jeda antara masa lalu dan masa depan
Satu masa yang terlindung dari detik-detik yang memburu
Sisipkan nafas baru pada jiwa yang lelah berjalan

Hening datang dalam bayang misteri
Dia seolah-olah bisa membuat kita merasa waktu terhenti
...sejenak... hanya dirinya yang terlihat...
Walau sebenarnya dia tak pernah sendirian

Dengarlah... jangan biarkan matamu terpejam
Ada Seseorang berdiri di balik hening
Seseorang yang menantimu untuk bangkit
Memanggilmu mendekat dan memulai perjalanan yang baru

.....

Hening sepertinya datang tanpa makna
Tapi dia bukan kekosongan
Jika saja kita memandangnya dengan jeli
...dan membiarkan dia berlalu saat jeda itu usai...

Mencari Soulmate "Tanya"


Mimpi...
Kau mau pergi ke mana?
Tolong jangan menghilang bersama keindahanmu...
Jangan hapuskan jejakmu karena kerumitan hidup...

Mimpi...
Benarkah engkau hanya sahabat anak kecil?
Apakah kedewasaan akan selalu membungkam dan menghanguskanmu?
Kau tahu? Banyak orang telah mengakui itu...

Mimpi...
Belakangan ini suaramu terkadang menghilang...
Nyanyianmu tak sekeras dulu lagi...

Buatku... kau telah menjadi bagian hidup...
Haruskah engkau tersisih hanya karena tuntutan usia?
Bukankah engkau masih bertalian dengan kreativitas dan kebebasan?
Haruskah tanggung jawab mendesak kalian untuk meninggalkan tahta? 

Mimpi...
Jangan beranjak dulu...
Dengarkan sejenak harapan bersajak untukmu...

"Aku tahu tentang seseorang dan legendanya...
Dimana impian dan kehidupan nyata melebur dalam cerita keabadian
Kau hanya perlu menautkan dirimu dalam serat-serat doa...
...dan menenun jalan setapak bersama Penciptamu..."

Mimpi...
Jangan biarkan jiwamu menguap...
Tinggallah di sini... bersamaku...
Biarkan lengan kokohNya menjagamu...

Kisah Sang Telaga

Tenggelam di tengah alunan hening malam
Menyusuri riak diri dan rasakan belaian angin
Dingin... kadang hanya ingin diri membeku
Dan biarkan waktu melaju tanpaku

Terbasuh aliran air mata
Tergores kerinduan dan angan-angan
Kekuatanku meluluh...
Seakan tak sanggup meredam seribu satu tanya yang bergejolak

Metamorfosa ini... mungkin tak akan berakhir
Sampai diri menguap di ujung jalan sana
Tapi jemariku ingin memanjat keluar
Rasakan debur lautan lepas tempat kelahiranku

Hantaman bebatuan membuatku tersadar
Aku terperangkap di dalam sini...
Langkah-langkahku membuat gelombang tak terarah
Tak ada jawaban... tak ada jalan keluar...

Saat kuterkulai dan nyaris menyerah
JubahNya jamahiku dalam suara hujan
Hujaman air menerjangku dari kekelaman langit
Tiba-tiba aku terangkat... meluap sampai ke darat

Telapak kakiku menggenangi bebatuan yang tadi menghalangiku
Membanjiri lumpur dan lumut yang sering membuatku tergelincir
Menyentuh tanah retak dan kaki-kaki tanaman menjalar
Tapi tubuhku sudah lelah... kubiarkan saja menghanyut ikuti arus

Kilatan cahaya buatku tersadar
Aku mencium bau yang sudah lama kurindukan
Walau tak secepat anak panah... langkahku memacu
Dan ragakupun melebur dalam pelukan maha luas

.....
Irama tarian hujan rupanya telah mengantarku kembali ke rumah...

Serenity

Second by second
Time is running so fast
Sometimes I just can't catch my breath
Why is it so hasty?

Images are swirling in my mind
They found some empty spots
Between the dreams and reality
I put my conscience and some prayers

Breathing this one moment
Capture as much as I can
Hoping that I can move faster
Without loosing my humanity and insanity

Sometimes...
Life is not that easy to be made
And we need an empty space... a sense of serenity
To keep our steps going to the right way

Just a peaceful silence
Sometimes it's all we need for a while
......

Be Patient With Yourself

After the wounds and hurts
After the denial and tears
After those deep thoughts

Sometimes...
You feel that you should have been recovered
You feel that your heart had been healed
Because gradually you can see things clearer and start to be grateful

But there are times...
You shocked to the reality that your heart still hurts
Your mind tells you that there's still hate and unforgiveness
And you're frustated by yourself... asking how can you be so slow...

"When will I be truly recovered?"
"Why does it takes me so long to get over this?"
"How long I must endure this uncertain emotions?"
"All I want is to be normal again... How come it's so difficult?"

Sometimes... it takes more than time to take care of the wounds
Sometimes it needs patience and understanding from yourself...
Your heart needs His touch
...and also your patience...

Just keep this in mind... you are still safe in His arms...
He is still holding your future in His hands
and you are still His beloved daughter...
The storm is only in your emotions and your mind...

...and don't you remember that He had calmed the storm?

So... just keep holding on...
Keep walking with your hopes and faith in Him
You can stop for a while to take a rest... but don't quit
Cause He has not done with you and He has not quit on you

...and please be patient with yourself :-)

PS: to my friends (you two know who you are), one day you will completely get over this. As long as you walk in obedience with Him as Your God, then everything will be okay... cause He's in control of your life (including love life of course) ^.^ My prayers be with both of you...

I've been there and done that... That's what I've learned to get through...

Love and Hate

"It's not enough for a gardener to love the flowers, but he must also hate the weeds."

Love His truth.. Hate the evil's lies
Love His commands by obeying them.. because even when they don't feel enjoyable, they were made for our safety and our happiness
Hate evil's persuasions by ignoring them.. because even when they do feel exciting, they were made for his pleasure and our misery.. to take us down with him..

It's not enough for us to love God, but we must also hate evil.

You Know It... and That's Enough

When there’s no one knows
What my heart is saying
When there’s no one can read completely
What my feeling is pouring

I know You understand
I know You listen…

Just by knowing that You know…
It’s quite enough to calm this waves

Jiwa Pengembara


Satu nada
Bermain menyusuri tepian hati
Jejaknya di pasir terhapus ombak
Hanya hening yang berbisik

Mengapa hanya diam?
Nada meluruh dalam kelana jiwa

Jiwa ini sedang merindu
Menatap sesuatu yang masih abstrak
Ingin berteduh di jeda perantauan
Khayalkan sebentuk rumah kalbu

Jiwa ini sedang lelah
Beradu sekian lama di antah berantah
Melintasi patahan-patahan perjalanan
Dalam seperempat episode kehidupan

Apakah yang membuatku galau berada jauh di sana?
Ataukah....
Itu ada di dalam sini?

Hatiku tahu...
Rasakan detakNya tetap bersamaku
Hanya itu saja... sudah cukup bagiku
Kakiku akan terus merajut kisah...

For Just a Moment

For just a moment
Escaping from all the hectic world
Shutting down all the noisy sounds
and pause the time...

For just a moment
Sense Your gentle touch
Feel surrounded by Your love
and captured by Your beauty...

For just a moment
Drowned in soothing silence
It's just You and me

For just a moment...
All the world can wait...

Let Go 'n Embrace

No need to turn around
It's time to step ahead
No need to recall old memories 'n play it back in your mind
It's time to hope for a new experience to memorize

Hurt.. Bitterness.. Disappointment..
Let them go.. Let them fall through your fingers
No need to keep holding them tight
God needs your empty hand to receive His blessings

Keys to the closed doors behind you..
Hand it over to Him
Cause He want to give you the new keys for your future doors
And make a new way for you to go through

Drop your heavy burdens
No need to carry your anxiousness.. your worries.. or your fear
Cause He want to give you wings
So you can fly away with Him...

Sail away..
See your next journey through the eyes of faith
Fly away..
Then you will know..

that all you need to do is just let go..
and embrace your new life..
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